My Parents Don't Pay Attention To Me & Favor My Brother

by Anonymous

I'm a 16 year old girl and I feel my parents don't pay attention to me. Every time when I sit down next to them they say nothing or sometimes just a 'hi' then it goes silence.

Always when I go downstairs to go to my parents, my older brother comes too. They always talk to him and forget I'm there. When I walk away furious to my room, they blame me and get mad at me.

I already deal with depression, cutting myself, PTSD and suicidal thoughts. If I ask for something they say they will get my things but then when they come home they don’t have the items I asked for. But they have what my brother wants, every time.

I get so angry at my brother and parents that I just want to throw myself in front a car. I already talked about it with them many times, but when they say they will not do that again and pay attention to me, they only do it for less than a week.

Then they go back to their pattern of only paying attention to my brother again. I always cry myself asleep thinking, “Am I worth living? Do they love me? Am I too bothersome?”

I don't have friends that I can stay with or a boyfriend I can stay with. I just want to get out of this house ASAP.

I can't make money either because I'm afraid of people. So a job isn't going to work for me. I gave up on school too, because I got panic attacks again and again.

I'm confused and don't know what to do anymore. I'm just stuck in this horrible house.