My Road Rage Scares Me And Makes No Sense
Speed Can Be Addictive
Lately I have been having a major problem with road rage. I have to drive on the highway to get to work. Fortunately I have a reverse commute, so the traffic usually isn't heavy.
My problem is with speeding and others speeding as well. I often feel like I have to be the fastest on the road and if I'm going fast in the left lane and someone passes me on the right going even faster, it drives me crazy and I end up going faster and then tailgating them or passing them.
When this happens I become fixated on the other car and want to seek revenge for them speeding faster than me. For some reason I have a very difficult time letting other people speed, yet I am always speeding. When I see other people doing bad things- such as cutting people off, tailgating, not using a blinker, etc... it makes me angry and then I do the same just to make other people angry!
When I go into a rage it scares me because sometimes I will miss my exit on the highway on purpose because my anger has taken over me and it is more important to "beat" the other person than get off my exit...this frightens me.
What can I do to change this behavior? Also- this is pretty new behavior, I am 36 years old and it really just started more frequently in the past year.