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It was my first year in college. I was in a relationship with a girl called Karen. At first it was good. Then a little bit of negativity was taking place within us.
Day after day, we used to quarrel. I will not lie, most of the time I was solely responsible. But I wasn't that matured then. I felt lonely and started chatting with another girl, named Christina. She at first seemed good to me. I used to chat with both of them.
At that time, it seems to me I was right. But life was becoming more and more complex. Christina was not a bad person. But she was egoistic, rude, and jealous. For this, I was having fight with Christina also. She seems so complicated to me. Sometimes the fault was mine. Other times, I wasn't even aware of what I did wrong.
I felt like I was interrogated for the very little mistakes I did. Such as, late replies and hanging out with my family and relatives. She was acting like I was her boyfriend, even though she knew about my current relationships.
I was in burnout because I was having fights with both of them almost every day. I was angry, I was crying, I was breaking my phones, hitting my head after quarreling.
And I needed to chat with both of them all day long, otherwise they became mad at me. I was lost. I was depressed and felt very anxious every single minute of my day. The major issues were with Christina.
It always felt like I need to reply to her, or else she will scream at me. I can't take a nap, or else she will be mad at me. I can't do my own things, I need to chat with her. Otherwise she will shout at me.
These things began to eat my mind and soul. I was frustrated and depressed. I tried to cut Christina out. But somehow she manipulated me to chat with her.
Then I started reading self-help books. I broke up with Karen because I thought she was the problem. I tried to make a good and healthy friendship with Christina because she was my classmate.
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