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I have been with the same man for 6 years. There are really fun parts to our relationship - gardening together, having a dog, owning a house, going on vacations, and hosting a foreign exchange student.
However, there are parts of our relationship that feel like my heart is getting ripped out. I get angry for days, and he is closed off and blames me. He especially blames my PMS for ruining things. I am sensitive and have days that I beg for emotional support. He says that I am not grateful and complain all the time.
He sees me hurting and upset and tries to get away from me as much as he can rather than trying to comfort me. He gets so defensive that yelling, name-calling, and threats happen. Then a few days later, he tells me he loves me & he will always love me. This messes with my head because he just called me "stupid," "retarded," etc.
I understand that he had abuse in his past, but it feels like his reactions to my requests are way out of proportion to what I am saying. I also sometimes feel like I am getting sucked into the messed up emotional life from his childhood. I get sucked in and yell back & fight for being "right" even though no one ever wins.
Several months ago, I called the police because an argument got so escalated that he broke my cell phone. I broke a remote control against the wall after he pushed me away from him, and I slapped him after he continued to berate me and say he was going to punch out my teeth.
That was rock bottom. And then the police showed up. But we still didn't seek professional help after that.
He told me I needed help. He never helped me pay to replace my phone either. There is no "working through issues" and these messy situations get swept under the rug. I am not perfect & I hold onto A LOT of resentment and don't know how to work through these issues with someone who is emotionally unavailable (due to working nights, alcohol use, and messed up sleep patterns).
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