Left Abusive Relationship But Thinking Of Going Back - Am I Crazy?

by Krystal

My husband and I have been married 5 months, together 6 years. The entire relationship has started on physical abuse and has since touched every category of abuse.

There are 4 children involved and they're constantly used as pawns to make me leaving being a selfish thing. I've been educating myself on abusive relationships and know all the signs and statistics, but of course I feel as though my relationship is the exception.

I can honestly say there has been improvement in the physical abuse but I believe it's solely because of all the past physical abuse. He needs only to hint at the other forms of abuse to intimidate me.

I left and am with my parents, which he says is worse than staying in the relationship. He's being super nice, willing to do "what it takes," but I've been here before with him. He says just come back home, it'll be better you know I'm better.

The truth is when he's happy and good, things are so great. I love our family and I question whether that means it's something I should fight for. I told him one of my stipulations is for him to take BIPP but I feel myself being drawn towards his loving behavior as I always am.

I am just confused whether to give up or not.