Bitter Sweet

by Charlotte
(Ireland)

I am a 19 year old girl with Asperger’s, and I'm in a committed relationship with my boyfriend. The problem is I have severe outbursts of anger for no reason.

My boyfriend and other people describe me as a complete stranger when this happens. I become obnoxious, abusive, arrogant, and stubborn. I also use a lot of bad language.

I throw and punch things and scream and cry for hours on end and the episode lasts for days on end. I am normally a very nice and caring person and I love life and love the people in my life.

My childhood was not good as I grew up in an unstable environment with a violent brother, an abusive sister and an alcoholic mother who took her anger out on me. I also was bullied a lot, and was socially isolated for most of my teenage years.

I was sexually abused at 16 and again at 18. I'm still waiting on counseling and my partner and I are trying to find the proper help I need.

My anger can go away for weeks or months and then occur again out of the blue. It's a big worry for my partner, as he fears I will harm myself or others. I also have no memory of my outburst after it happens.

I am really lost and depressed over it because I never mean to hurt the ones close to me.

Heal The Cause Of Your Anger