Bipolar And Abuse
(Safe House, USA)
Last July I fell in love with an incredibly sweet man and we got married in December. I knew he had a history of being an abuser but I also egotistically believed our love was different and I was woman enough to help him not go back to abusive behaviors.
It wasn't long before patterns started showing up...fits of rage easily triggered, narcissistic signs, screaming. Then came the arm grabbing, shoving and finally the strangulation, which ultimately led to me leaving.
I tried to open up to his sister who told me I was overreacting. So now we have been separated for about a month, however we are in constant contact. He has taken 100% responsibility for his actions and admitted he is bipolar and has not been on his medication. He has agreed to seek the psychiatric help this mental health disorder needs and has agreed to counseling.
I want to believe that everything will work out and we will be able to work towards our happily ever after. I'm debating packing and driving the 2200 miles to get home and yet I am nervous about actually getting in the car and going back.
I don’t want to end my marriage, however I wonder if that's best for myself and the 3 kids I adopted before I met him.
I miss my husband, the kind doting sweet man he is when not in a fit...and am wondering will the medication truly be enough to help him or am I living in a romanticized fantasy?