I'm Miserable And Sometimes Black Out With Anger

by Ashley
(Modesto, California)

Well I've had this friend for 3 years. She is or was my best friend and like a sister. I don't regret a minute of it, but since this year started she's been meaner and ignoring me. I get pissed off and lash out at everyone and now it's so bad that I'm ready to commit suicide. I don't know what to do.

I don't want to lose my best friend but she is the main cause of my anger. I have to force myself to control my anger that's built up inside me because of my cousin and my biological father.

I've never physically hurt anyone except when I black out when I get mad enough. It's pretty much like the hulk, I just don't tear my clothes. When I get mad I just turn red. My eyes change color and I feel like tearing somebody's head off their shoulders.

Response from Dr. DeFoore

Hello Ashley, and thanks for telling your story here. You've got a form of anger addiction, and it's good that you want to get some help. I strongly encourage you to do all of the exercises recommended on this FAQ page, which is perfectly designed for someone who is going through what you're going through.

Do this, Ashley...for yourself and your good heart. You are worth it.

If you are actively suicidal, then call 911 or your local suicide prevention hotline. You have to be the one to decide what you need right now.

My very best to you,

Dr. DeFoore

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