If It Was Only Me

"How I wish I could bring back the fun time
To the moments she had just a little breath

The fond memories will forever linger within me

Oh, how I wish I knew the second of her death
I admit I was in shock and didn't want it to be
I pretended it wasn't so, and I put it all behind

The tears started to flow and the grief began
Mourning had poured but still no comfort to find

I wish I could have been the one to go first
And I blame myself for not being there at the end

My dear sister was in pain and suffering long
Will she now consider me to be her best friend?

If it was only me, I tell myself over and over
And why must life end for the good at heart?

I know I must accept death in the long run

And I must let anger go and let the healing start.