I Keep Failing At Everything And I'm Losing Hope

by Sabrina
(London)



It all started when my anxiety started up. I was displaying all the signs and I couldn't do anything about it. At first I was worried I had heart problems, since I had frequent panic attacks. I didn't. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and chronic depression.

I'll be honest, the depression was not as bad a few months ago, but it has gotten worse. My grades were getting worse, and I was losing faith in myself increasingly. My parents are starting to dislike me too. I honestly don't blame them. I would be angry at me too.

I have Google Plus, and honestly, I love it. It opened my eyes, and it has always made me happy. However, my parents disapprove of it, and have told me to delete, but I can't. It is the ONLY thing making me happy. Should I be concerned? Plus, it's the only thing making me smile nowadays.

I often lash out and say horribly disrespectful things to my parents, and I really hate this about myself. It's like I can't control it, and I often feel like I want to be isolated desperately after these things are said. This is becoming worse, and combined with the depression, it's becoming incredibly hard.

I feel the worst guilt, and I often end up crying in my bedroom. I show my parents that this isn't affecting me and that my reaction is completely emotionless. I can't do it anymore. I'll burst into tears in my bedroom, and then come out with an emotionless expression.

I hate myself, a lot, and I'm sick and tired of it. No matter how hard I try, I'll always end up loathing myself. I feel like crap when I enter the school gates, because I know I look terrible, and that I can't do anything about it.


My friends also seem to want to exclude me... I feel forgotten everywhere, and all I want is to be emotionless. I feel like this is out of my hands now. I have booked numerous appointments to the GP, and am thinking of using anti-depressants.

I also would like counseling. I don't know if both should be good, or if one. I would really like your input on this. Thank you, Doctor.

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Dec 02, 2015
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The Hope Is In You
by: Dr. DeFoore

Hi Sabrina. I can tell that you are a bright person, and the reason you don't like the anxiety, depression and anger is that they don't match up with who you really are.

You're a good person who wants to be happy. That's your basis for hope, and it's inside you. I strongly encourage you to read this web page, and follow all of the recommendations. This will guide you through a step-by-step process that will help you with all of your emotions, and you'll start to feel more like the good person you are.

You can do this, Sabrina. You've got what it takes to work through these issues and feel better.

And yes, get some counseling, and keep using Google Plus...if it makes you so happy, then it must be a good thing for you. I would encourage you to read online about anti-depressants before taking them. They sometimes do more harm than good, but you be the judge of that.

My very best to you,

Dr. DeFoore

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