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Submitted by: WAYNE WADDELL

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James, My name is Wayne. I am retired military and I also work with Veterans. I see a lot of Vets every week. What you experienced was a true horror and it is also something that I have heard of from many other Veterans. I have heard of many cases just like this one where a child, who had been brutally brainwashed into becoming a killer, eventually just can't take it anymore and tries to get a soldier to kill him. These children are well trained to hold a grenade behind themselves, carefully pull the pin, count and then throw the grenade, or to turn around where the soldier cannot see what he is doing, and then pull the pin. The count behind the back is so that when they eventually throw the grenade, the enemy doesn't have time to react. They KNOW that for them to move the grenade to the front of their little bodies where the grenade can be seen and then go to pull the pin, it will give the enemy time to react and kill them. If you had not killed the child, the child would have done this with the next soldier to come along. You are not a murderer, it is my opinion that this child committed suicide. This story has been told in many wars. The war in the Desert, in Viet Nam and the wars that preceded it. You have inside of you the memories and feelings from the war that you have been forced into. It is now time for you to slowly, gently and patiently, take those memories out, one at a time. Be in the memory to allow yourself to feel your own real feelings about what you experienced. It will be about crying, grieving, raging, sadness, betrayal, confusion, loss and other feelings that are now stuck in your body, making you tired, sore, and in turmoil. As you are able to move through these memories and feelings, you will begin to feel better within yourself. It will not mean that you will forget what happened but it will mean that you find an answer for YOU about what happened. Going through this will allow your body to heal. It is not comfortable to do this. It does feel like huge loads are taken off of you as you move through the memories and feel your real feelings of the moment. You will find peace. You do not have to do this by yourself. There is help out there for you. There are places called Vet Center as well as the Veterans Administration. There are many books on what your are going through. I commend you for writing on this web site. It shows you are wishing to heal as well. Dr. DeFoore's site is set up to help you heal. It is one tool in a possible larger tool box of things that are out there to help you. Welcome home and I am grateful that you have come home in one piece. Now take the time to become whole again and God Bless.

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